Babies are generally made in one of two ways. 1. A couple decides they are ready to grow their family and they start trying to get pregnant the old-fashioned way. 2. OOPS!
When you’re infertile, neither of these methods really apply to you. The first time around, we didn’t know we were infertile, so we spent many years trying to avoid 2. and then a few years desperately trying to achieve 1. When trying naturally produced no results, we turned to fertility treatments and were put on a path that eventually lead to IVF, which gave us our most precious gift, our daughter. It also gave us another unexpected gift: the possibility to grow our family again through frozen embryos.
This leaves us in a weird fertility limbo. While I’m not sure we’re ready to get pregnant right now, we know we would like more children and it seems weird to sit around and get older/more infertile. We also are hyper aware that time is not on our side. Do we try on our own and see if things magically work this time around? After all, our diagnosis was unexplained infertility and it is possible, but not likely, that I could get pregnant naturally. But where does that leave those little frosties?
I remember clearly the mix of emotions I experienced when the clinic called to tell us they were able to freeze some embryos. Four to be exact. Wonderful! But wait…four!? Four means the (unlikely) possibility of five children. How did we get from wanting a child so desperately to the possibility of five children?
Our perfect daughter was created through the same process as our frozen embryos and I feel an obligation to give the others a chance at life. I don’t necessarily see them as our children, but as the real possibility of life — much more tangible when I see my growing, healthy little girl. We made the decision to create them, out of both love and desperation, and it is hard to consider the possibility of not using them if we are able to have more children the natural way. You see, there are no easy decisions when it comes to infertility.
We are enormously blessed to have had success with IVF, and even more lucky to have frozen embryos that will allow us to try again. And soon there will be big decisions to make…
If you’re a busy parent (who isn’t!?) I’m begging you to check out Hello Fresh! I’ll be the first to admit that my cooking skills are not up to par, but when my hubby suggested trying a meal delivery service I had visions of gross frozen lasagna. Not the case! We’ve been doing Hello Fresh for about a month and it is seriously delicious. Bonus points for it helping me learn how to cook AND creating some much needed time for me and hubby to reconnect each night after we put Zuzu to bed.
Below are snaps of some of the meals we’ve made. Some of our favorites so far include Smoky Beef & Poblano Chili, Shrimp & Lemon Risotto with Roasted Zucchini and Parmesan, and Pork & Apple Burger with Rosemary Potatoes and Mixed Green Salad. YUM!
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Jamie’s Super-Speedy Steamed Salmon with Jewelled Couscous & Yogurt
Garlic-Butter Shrimp with Tomato, Brown Rice, and Caramelized Veggie Skewers